Living off campus and attending a college that has a strong focus on the coined term "intentional community" is difficult. Something that I've been realizing as I move back into a new semester is that while I am on campus and engaging in said community, I feel as though I belong, as though I am truly engaging. However, as soon as I leave and head back to my own abode, I suddenly feel extremely distant. Don't get me wrong, this is something that's definitely okay with me, but why does the contrast always feel so strong?

I'm an introverted person; yes, my personality is such that I like being around people: I'm not anti-social in the least. But there is a point for which I just need separation, time to recuperate and spend some time just vegetating. One would think that living off-campus would then be perfect for someone with my personality. I can spend time with my friends on campus, and then leave and be alone off campus. Huh.

I kinda wish that I had a dorm room, actually. I love it when people come over to my house to hang out in my room. Having people come over and just play video games or watch TV in my room whenever they want actually sounds like it would be really nice. I can't really explain why. I think what I need is a roommate.

I don't really know where I'm going with all of this. I thought that I would just give myself a chance to vent and hop back into the Blogosphere. You can expect me to make a few more posts in the near future. I have found this session very therapeutic. Thank you very much.

Paul